This is a toughie. I also find myself WANTING to snoop...always am tempted! It's hard to fight it. I am scared of the known so, once this feeling comes, I remind myself that "ignorance is bliss".
But since you've done your snooping, you are in a more difficult situation. It's hard to deal with it, especially alone. This is the moment that you need his reassurance, but he won't be able to reassure you if he's unaware of it. Yet, telling him your feelings about it will open a can of worms: YOU SNOOPED!
Unless you are brave enough to admit your snooping activity and tell him how you feel about what you discovered, apologize for what you did and ask him to reassure you & compromise...there is nothing much you can do, but deal with it on your own.
MandyBee has a point. Fake it till you make it...tell yourself that you don't need him...tell yourself that you are strong. Take care.
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