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**Isabellacat** · 07-03-2009, 11:28 PM

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Originally Posted by WildChild

Wow, I missed this thread. Isabells you've had a tough row to hoe. You are stronger than you know. A lot of people facing things like this don't make it - as you know. We are here in life to learn and grow and develop. Sometimes it seems too hard or painful, unfortunately no matter how bad you have it there is always someone who has it worse.

Cw is right you have things you enjoy and love. You have and have had freinds, even if some of them are gone, they are still a part of you. Do you get out much? It might be a good idea to do something, some volunteer work maybe? It sounds like you relate well to older people, is there a senior center in the area you could give a hand at a few times a week?

Hi!! Unfortunately lately I have'nt been going out much.

I was diagnosed with agoraphobia several years ago which is one reason why I'm on disabilty. I also have severe PTSD and depression from being in situations of trying to save my friend and the abuse.... I'm trying to overcome those things but don't know what to do at the moment. It's really hitting me hard lately.....I used to be alot more outgoing.Volunteering sounds good but I don't think I'm in the right state of mind to commit to work like that now. Sounds really hard to do at the moment.

I may have mentioned this or not,but one of the reasons why I have'nt been social lately is because of several falling outs with certain people over the recent months. One I already mentioned was my friend who I had an argument with and moved to NY...the other is a man I tried dating and had a terrible break-up with last December. I've been so depressed about that too and noticed since December I have'nt been going out as much as I used to.
Adding all these things up I start to believe I'm seriously messed up and must look like and nobody wants me....I hear stories about other girls having boyfriends and having a good time....just makes me even more depressed. I have'nt had sex in over 2 years......

I've lost alot of interest in it anyways. Some people must read this thread and think I'm a total dork but I don't care...Just expressing myself....I don't want to sugarcoat everything and pretend nothing's happening.