Healing is a journey all on its own.... It can take many years but its taking the first steps towards acceptance, self love, tolerance for self, positive mental chatter
Then you will one day notice a shift in your life that the things that use to really bring ya down or throw you off track dont have the power or influence over you they once did.
you are very honest in your posts and you should be lying to yourself only prolongs the healing process.
You already see blessings in your life and that is a great attitude to have.