Yes, as time goes by I get a little stronger, but I also get more nervous and anxious. I feel like, it has been a little over 2 weeks now and I didn't even think he had the nerve to be gone this long, what if he dosen't come back. I know that I can't control any of it and thinking about what he is doing or thinking doesn't help much either. Today is just one of those days that I can't help but think. I bought him a really sappy card talking about how we don't know the future and love never said it was easy, but that I will always love him. Why did I even do that? I don't even know if I will ever get to give it to him or send it to him or if he'll even read it. It is prob. just a waste of $3 but I couldn't help it. I was looking for a sappy "I miss you daddy" card but couldn't find one. I took cute pics of our little girl with a shirt that says "I love Daddy" on it and when they get developed I want to try to send it to his work and see if he'll open it and feel bad. I know that prob. sounds bad, but I don't know what else to do. He has been there since day 1 and now been gone from her life for over 2 weeks that is totally uncalled for and irresponsible! ARGH!!!! Well, I guess it is just one moment at a time I guess. I am trying, I really am. I need to get back to things but wanted to vent and update for a minute. I am glad to hear your honeymoon went so great Tinkerbell! Everyone needs a vacation, I know I sure do! Hope to hear from you all again soon!