Secrets of the Abyss

I thought I CAN manage
I did for a while
But my spirit is low
and not in-sync.

I did something last night
That surely would break your heart
I did it, because I hate you
I hate ME.

I no longer want to live,
I want to sleep endlessly
Never to wake up.

I feel so empty
I feel all alone
I don't have anybody
To turn to but myself.

I wanted to be patient
I wanted to be caring
Caring enough to want to go on

But I can't!

I missed my bestfriend
So much...
He's the only friend I've got.
He's the only one who understands me...

But he is also the one who broke my heart...
Torn it into bits and pieces
Now, how will I go on?

Tell me...
I couldn't.

All I know is that,
He might be the jerkest of all jerks,
But I miss him.

I miss him so much,
More than anything.

I want to DIE.