Secrets of the Abyss

I was in turmoil a while ago,
Yes, I did an abomination.
A certain deed,
Not typical of me.
A certain act that is off the wall
Mainly illogical and unacceptable.

I battled deep within.
I wrestled against my will,
My mind stopped thinking,
My heart clamored of not beating
At all.

Yet, after pondering
Listening to insightful words
These loving people gave,
I realized it's OK.

Though my moral standards
Don't buy the reason
That my situation warrants...

I did this, I am miserable!
I will not allow myself
To be in this situation again.

Rebound is rebound
It is evil.
It is sick,
It is using others
For your own sake.

Never acceptable,
Never been justifiable.
I hold myself responsible
For falling into this trap.

I am
A shame,
A scandal,
A reason
Why men would detest
Their ex-girlfriends...

Finally...
Letting go
Of this sick emotion.

I will burn this page tonight,
And will start anew.