Secrets of the Abyss

I have been to my OB-GYN for a check - up since I am two months delayed. She tested me and turned out positive...WT? How could this happen?

Ex-BF doesn't know - I don't intend to tell him. I am pregnant, but it might be ectopic. There is a very slim chance of keeping it (I hope I could)...on the other hand, this situation is lethal and painful for me, both emotionally and physically.

I committed a mistake, but it was protected, so ruling out the factors, it zoomed down to the ex-BF. So whatever happens, I will be on my own.

It is not his responsibility, he doesn't have to know it. I take full responsibility for this, and actually, I pray that I can keep the baby. I fervently hope I could...gosh!

I am still doing yoga, but I might stop Taekwando for the baby. I am always hungry and so far emotionally stable - no mood swings, no "in-the-dumps" episodes.

I am excited for this angel - hope it's a girl. This is a miracle because I am not supposed to have an offspring due to BC. Heck! This is a blessing in disguise!

I am going to take good care of myself more. Make sure I sleep enough and eat healthy. I will not date like I did a month ago. I will stay single and devote my time to this little angel.

His/her daddy will not learn about this. I am not going to share anything about this.

I hope I can keep the baby...I hope the doctor can carefully do something to help me keep it.

2 months...7 months to go! Another butterfly in the making!