Secrets of the Abyss

I have been in this mood since last night. I tried to fight it, but to no avail. I hate it when this episode comes. I wish I can just teleport myself to wherever I want to go.

On the second thought, if I could, where would I go?

To Disneyland where all my dreams come true? well, probably my kiddie dreams - but once I get back home, I realize it's just a fantasy after all.

To SeaWorld? Maybe a good choice for a water person like me. But then, I don't get to stay there for long.

I would really enjoy going to any amusement park, no doubt about that. But these are all but temporary relief to how I am feeling right now.

I want to go to where my heart is. I want to defy the distance that set me physically incapable of being with who my heart yearns for.

I would, I will. I need to be, I have to be strong.

Right now, I feel like crying. Feeling helpless once more about my situation. I would love to talk to you, and hear you rant about anything under the sun. Just to make me feel close to you again. Because this distance is killing me softly.

Just hearing your voice. Just knowing that you are okay, and that you care.

Tears come and moisten my cheeks. Let the emotions come out and be released abundantly out of my system. De-clog my glands of all their imperfections, and make me whole again.