Secrets of the Abyss

4AM, I heard it ring.
I picked up, answered, not knowing.
I was terrified! 'Twas a man's voice.

No, he's not my husband, I thought!
I listened more and listened well.
Asked who he was.
Said he's Van, I thought it was Ken.
I even thought it was my uncle 'BEN'.

And then, I listened long,
Then told him short,
I'm married, then hung up.
A minute later,'nother 'ring' came up.

"I moved to your area now,
Just like I promised you", said he.
"Too late now, I'm no longer
The free woman you once knew".

I said further,
When I told you before
That I don't feel anything for you,
It is true.
And when I told you I was getting married,
That is true too.

"NOW, I am married", I emphasized.
Said he thought I was joking and just wanted to banish him.

He insisted. Wanted us to talk more.
I was being polite, but told him,
Hey, I need to sleep.
He asked if we can hang out.

What the?! I told him no.
I AM MARRIED.
Happily married, I almost shouted.

He asked if I ever get lonely being on my own,
I said yes, but I get by.
My husband calls me often, almost every night.
I told the guy, my husband is very sweet and loving,
Caring. He takes good care of me.

He started to challenge what I said.
I refused to listen.
I cut the convo short and started to
Bid him goodbye (good riddance).


Glad he took a hint.

But this phone call
Once again
Resurfaced some hurt.
That made me want to
Run to my loving husband's arms.

To his refuge
For him to make me feel
And know that I am safe
That I am loved
or just be comforted.

Anxiety lifted.
Thrown out to the window
To be seen no more.

I called, no answer.
I called the 2nd time, 3rd time...
Left a message...
I was starting to feel some
Unrest brewing.

I hung up,
Cried and cried.
Helpless again.

Phone rang, I said "hello".
Hearing his voice,
My heart leaped,
I shed more tears,
Both of longing and joy.

Ah, so glad now.
Better inside out.
Blessed, thankful that
My husband,
loving, caring, faithful and true..
is my lover, my friend, my all.