This is all about my life's saga as I battle the odds of recuperation after marital rape and divorce, and beginning a new promising relationship with a recovering alcoholic.
I am feeling so unbelievably needy but I don’t trust my outlets and I don’t trust myself. I don’t trust that I won’t cross the line or stay within boundaries and I don’t trust that I won’t end up overburdening or overwhelming someone. It comes down to me. Again. I gather strength from others. I can’t ask for strength or a listening ear. I recently made some boundaries with family members and told them I can’t be their problem solver anymore. They need to work out within themselves their problems ...
I have this overwhelming thirst for undivided attention, love, care and validation. Is this because as a child, I went through my day with only my grandparents around? I mean, I don't despise the fact that they took care of me. I am very grateful because they did...but did that cause my anxieties as an adult? Sometimes I wake up in the night imagining my dad getting ready to leave for a couple of months' assignment in a far flung area, where there is war and chaos. I longed for his ...