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Today, I dreamed about something related to the past which is somehow overboard - one that my husband didn't do nor plan to do, and yet, I felt hurt anyway - in my dream. And guess what, I woke up and reacted on it and just almost ruined our day as a couple!

It has been a rocky summer last year and I thought when we got back together, I have succeeded in putting it aside and close the book. I am wrong! That dream turned out to be the release of my pent - up emotions and they needed ...

Nothing special - it's just a Friday
But I am especially happy say,
I have talked to a long lost friend.

My bestfriend from high school.
She's much like me, bubbly and silly.

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I am sleepy
I shall lie down and doze off for a few.

Thou shalt be content of what you have,
Or you'll feel inadequate all your life.

Thou shalt cry more
In cleanse your eyes and not leave them dry.

Thou shalt not expect anything,
Else you'll be dropped with a bomb in no time.

Thou shalt focus on yourself and only yourself
Until you are ready to get out of your coccoon.

Thou shalt learn to rely on your resources
And you'll be stronger.

Thou shalt keep your ...

I feel distant
I don't know why.

It feels like
On my own
Still
Alone.

Why is that?

Oh, life!
Baffling
Confusing
Stifling.

Tomorrow
I'll wake up
Conquer...
Again.


And live.
Love.
Be happy.


I want
Consistency.
Frequency.
Normalcy?


Whatever
It
Is...

I will
Figure ...

I have been reading WildChild's blog post about this, and realized that I have brought a lot of baggage into my past relationships, especially this latest one, not to mention the ton of baggage that I was presented with as well.

I had been living in my past trying to live in the now. This, I believe have wrecked havoc not only to me as a person, but also to my previous BF.

I have lived a happy life while we were together, in close proximity or not, it was fulfilling, such ...