Wow! So much has happened! I look back on the last month and so much has changed.. with me.. with my life.. with everything. I've been goign through such an awful time lately as I have repressed all feelings for my ex. but i can't deny how I feel anymore.. I stil love him.. deeply. I've been blockng these feelings for a long time.. before we split even. Very confusing. I went to see him 2 weeks ago and he actually thanked me for leaving. For "shaking things up" so he could figure ...