I often think about the choices people make, the choices I've made, often poor choices. In retrospect, actually in some cases even at the time, better options are clear but not taken. People will chose what is less convienient, less safe, less attractive, more difficult but which provides no offsetting gain at all.

I have a clear example of this with snow. The buildings I live in have two sets of outside stairs. One set stays very protected from the weather, these stairs are always...

done...

Im done.
Someone stick a fork in me because I am DONE

I feel the pressure building up on me...and I cannot take it anymore.

I feel like Im going to burst into a million peices. I havent cut in ages, or done anything horrible...but there are certain things I cannot help but think of.

kill me. kill me. kill me. kill me. kill me.

I am having this emotional roller coaster,
It could be hormonally induced,
Stress related
Or schizophrenic in nature!

Whatever it is, I feel it
Coming and going
Like waves that wash the shore
Like the tides that would go high or low,

Dependent on the moon's gravity
So does my emotions...
Am I really this crazy?

I drove home yesterday
With a very happy
Content heart.
Knowing that my love is here...

Last night...whew.

I cannot believe I am actually writing this. So, only a few of you know that my "Fiancee" cheated on me with an office .

So, I ran into an old fling of mine. We will call him SA boy.
So we went out for drinks, and danced. we were BOTH SOBER...but we went back to his place, and passed out on his bed. In the morning, I woke up to...Hashbrowns and bacon...no eggs because I dont care for them. So I ate, and then we ended up kissing....and...