I cut again last night. I felt so good. Digging the knife into my ugly skin. The more I bleed the better I feel seeing the blood run down nothing compares. It gives me relief it keeps me sane. Its not even like they are apart of me but it punishes me for being so worthless .It feels so good nothing compares

all I have done is cry, I wanna cut I wanna starve myself I wanna just sleep. I feel bi-polar all these thoughts rushing through my head I can't concentrate I can't sit still. I know my life isn't bad and I'm just being an then that makes me feel worse that I should just suck it up. ARG why am I so stupid why am I so pathetic just arg arg arg. Gonna go clean try to get my mind off things calm down feel sane... I'm out