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Nathan will be getting out this month, in exactly twenty-three days. I have not heard from him since about July, when he sent me his last letter. I can't say that those feelings I've had for Nathan are still the same. As I was reading my other two blogs, that became very apparent. Sooo much has happened since I've last seen Nathan in March.

I met this guy at a bar named Elijah and started seeing him. We weren't ever together or even really dating, but he was a big part of my life ...

This will be one of those blogs where all I do is talk about Nathan...Nathan, nathan, nAtHaN...NATHAN!!! lol

I am irrevocably in love with this man!!

When I think about him, I feel complete bliss. I know this can't just be lust, or infatuation, or obsession. I know he consumes my whole heart right now, but that's okay because at the same time, I know I consume his. I know there can be a lot of grey areas when it comes to distinguishing between the hard to read feelings ...

So, I have posted threads about how I am falling in love with an inmate. I call him Nate. He is an ex-boyfriend of mine who I dated when I was 17. Four years later and I find out he is looking at ten years, and I come to realize that I am falling in love with him all over again, through our visits at the jail, through our letters, and our phone conversations.

He will possibly be out in less than another year, so I'm not tripping about that. I just wanted to post a blog about what ...