Living in a Wonderland.
Posted 07-11-2009 at 05:21 PM by ThexMrs
Living in a Wonderland... Yeah, right. I hate my living situation. Today has been the worst day ever. No, my dog didn't die but still.
Screaming.
Pleading.
Crying.
Angst.
Everything you can think of when it comes to the aforementioned words is happening in my house right now.
I can't stand it. The lastest is that I will not be living here anymore. (Not said to me, decided for me) though the problems have nothing to do with me.
Sometimes I wish I were dead.
No problems.
No strife.
Nothing.
In a grave, 6 feet under, numb.
I haven't cut in months. I want to cut right now. If you're not a cutter, you don't know anything about it. Knowing facts does NOT make you a professional. I need the release.
There is Vodka in the freezer. I want to drink the whole 1/5 or what is left of it. There is quite a bit.
Take some Xanax, Vicodin. Any available pills that would take me out of this "Wonderland" and adrift another realm.
Sex... That's any easy fix. Come over. I'll lay down for you. Why not? It shouldn't make any difference. That's exactly what I am good for.
Hatred.
Hatred of myself.
Hatred of others in my life.
Hatred of the world that I am living in.
Screaming.
Pleading.
Crying.
Angst.
Everything you can think of when it comes to the aforementioned words is happening in my house right now.
I can't stand it. The lastest is that I will not be living here anymore. (Not said to me, decided for me) though the problems have nothing to do with me.
Sometimes I wish I were dead.
No problems.
No strife.
Nothing.
In a grave, 6 feet under, numb.
I haven't cut in months. I want to cut right now. If you're not a cutter, you don't know anything about it. Knowing facts does NOT make you a professional. I need the release.
There is Vodka in the freezer. I want to drink the whole 1/5 or what is left of it. There is quite a bit.
Take some Xanax, Vicodin. Any available pills that would take me out of this "Wonderland" and adrift another realm.
Sex... That's any easy fix. Come over. I'll lay down for you. Why not? It shouldn't make any difference. That's exactly what I am good for.
Hatred.
Hatred of myself.
Hatred of others in my life.
Hatred of the world that I am living in.
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Wow, your taking it badly woman..
Each person's problems and hurt and pain are real, theirs.
If a dog dies, it's hurt and pain and real and theirs.
You are beautiful, you are real and in pain, we are there.
Sex is really that... Cringe,,, Why give to them..... you are beautiful.
You need to see the real you...............
Sleep instead and wake up smiling, we love you.
We do.Posted 07-13-2009 at 05:18 AM by CHANDLERS WISH
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CW: I know that everyone has pain and it's theirs to claim and be respected. However, what is going on in my house is so pointless. It's anger over nothing. It's ridiculous.
Thank you. I am beautiful (sometimes) and yes I am in pain. It's My Beautiful Depression.
Why give it to them? Why not? Look at life... Everyone, EVERYONE uses each other. It's disgusting but true.Posted 07-13-2009 at 12:16 PM by ThexMrs 
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