I hurt myself after months:
Posted 09-14-2009 at 11:09 PM by ThexMrs
Last week things weren't going so well. Sunday I called Jared and told him that I wanted to talk. (I had to leave a voice-mail because he didn't answer) He texted me and said that he didn't have a voice but asked what I needed. I told him that I needed him. He wrote back asking what else I needed. I thought I would be cheeky so I wrote, sex. He then wrote back and said that I could get that anywhere. It was totally out of the blue. I told him that I only wanted to have sex with him. He wrote back and I quote, "Maybe when Martin gets here he can give it to you all you want." After that it turned into a blow out.
We talked later that night and worked things out. The next day was good and then Tuesday came. That wasn't good. We had another huge fight but made up for the most part. Ever since then things with him have been awful.
Wednesday came and I was so overwhelmed knowing that I would be moving that weekend, thoughts of work, university, my faltering relationships... I went to my room and stuck my hand in the doorway and continuously slammed it in the door until I thought I broke it. I figured that was better than cutting.
As of today my fingers are still very bruised and swollen but I feel okay about what I did. I guess I'm not ashamed of it.
Things with Jared are on the rocks still. I thought that he broke up with me Saturday but then when we talked Sunday he said that wasn't the case. He was supposed to come over today. He said after his 10 am appointment that we could see each other. He never texted, called or made any kind of contact. He still hasn't.
I don't know what to do.
We talked later that night and worked things out. The next day was good and then Tuesday came. That wasn't good. We had another huge fight but made up for the most part. Ever since then things with him have been awful.
Wednesday came and I was so overwhelmed knowing that I would be moving that weekend, thoughts of work, university, my faltering relationships... I went to my room and stuck my hand in the doorway and continuously slammed it in the door until I thought I broke it. I figured that was better than cutting.
As of today my fingers are still very bruised and swollen but I feel okay about what I did. I guess I'm not ashamed of it.
Things with Jared are on the rocks still. I thought that he broke up with me Saturday but then when we talked Sunday he said that wasn't the case. He was supposed to come over today. He said after his 10 am appointment that we could see each other. He never texted, called or made any kind of contact. He still hasn't.
I don't know what to do.
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