Thread: Terrified

I am 32, married 6 years, 5 kids. I haven't had a pap smear in 3 years. But all paps previously were normal, never had infections or gyno issues before, all births were normal except I did have a cesction with my last child because she was sideways. My pelvic area hasn't felt normal since. I am about 40-50 pounds overweight. I've been known to be anemic and have low progesterone/high estrogen. My periods have always been kind of irregular, but never heavy. I am on no meds, but probably should be for SEVERE anxiety/depression for 10 years. I haven't left my home in months. I did have a few HPV warts removed 7 years ago but the doctor said they were not the cancer kind.
2 years ago:
severe fatigue
irregular periods (but not heavy)
spotting midcycle/before period
severe/constant lower back pain/radiates to both legs
started having bowel issues (from loose to constipated)
9 months ago:
watery/yellowish discharge started (daily)
I would spot like I did previously before discharge started but because it was mixed with discharge, I had a hard time telling if it was spotting or pink discharge.
eczema/rash all over genital/thigh/buttock area
I noticed it had been a long time since I showed signs of ovulation. No temp change or cervical mucus.
no other symptoms/no pelvic pain or abnormal bleeding
July:
1 week before I was due a period, I had a small blood clot (quarter size) and red bleeding for like 10 minutes. I thought it was period starting but nothing came of it. A week later the discharge was heavy and brown for a day. Figured my period was coming. Then one night I felt wet, went to the bathroom and bright red blood gushed like a faucet for like 5 minutes. 30 minutes later, another small gush. Next 2 days were just spotting. I almost went to ER cause it scared me bad. But I didn't cause it stopped. The next day is when the pelvic pain started. I decided then to cut out all sugar (my diet was horrid) and I started loosing weight. I can't excercise due to fatigue and back pain.
August, Sept, Oct were filled with irregular light red or pink spotting/bleeding. Especially after a BM, Id see bright red blood, or if I had to pee real bad. It was non pattern, just come and go. Never heavy. But a new symptom started happening: I would get chills/cramping and pass these dime size clots. Spotting or not. Sometimes it would make the spotting start. But sometimes a clot would come out with no bleeding or spotting, just randomly. I kept loosing weight because I cut out dairy/wheat/sugar and got very depressed. I have lost 35 pounds in 4-5 months (Im still considered obese), but I also realized I was only consuming like 900 calories a day. I started obsessing over all thus and googling-daily-nightly. Worrying 24/7.
For the past month, discharge has improved to only happening when I pee. No bright red bleeding. No period yet. A few times of pink when I have a BM. And several times of the wierd random clots. But Ive started having urine frequency and mild pain after I pee. I don't even know if Ive had a true period in months because the bleeding has been light, random, not like a normal period.
I've taken AZO uti test that said I have a trace of a UTI, but it hasn't got worse in a month?
I have also taken several Vagisil Infection test (when not bleeding), and all kept saying a PH of 6.0 indicating BV or Trich.
Help? I need to somehow see a doctor, but I can't leave home.