Hmmm.

Your a big girl, you can make your own decisions, the key is that no one owns you but YOU.. So, you don't have to justify anything you do to your friends and in-fact, quite honestly, I would also suggest that whilst I know your excited, "ooh, I have a date" and sharing, then "so what happened?" and more sharing, I'd just keep it to myself for now

From what you wrote, you want to have fun, but you really also deep down would love someone that's yours, that loves you and is in your life, hense the confusion.

Remember, a person does not get to know you as you, that inner you, if you talk sexual.. Their brain is on one thing and off course when you meet, that's the end result. So, remember, that's going to be the outcome, nothing more... And no need to justify yourself to them either after.

You DO have to be careful, extremely careful. You mentioned an almost three some... in that email. That guy could have said, "yeah well let's just see where it goes, come over Saturday" and he could have had a couple of mates waiting. Keep that type of information to yourself ,you don't know these guys and also, please be safer, again, you don't know these guys, going to a guys house that you've only talked on-line too, without anyone knowing where you are, is dangerous. Tell someone, for sure and tell him when you get there that people know you are there.

If you feel in your heart of hearts, you want someone in your life, don't talk sexual under any circumstances and if they do, see the writing on the wall of what they are after... Don't listen to " love you" over an internet and don't sleep on the first night

Then you have the cards to play, on whooing them your way.

You definately don't have to "give" in order to gain a person in your life.

You definately DO have to start giving to yourself and re-gain that confidence back, "you are woman" and "you are smart" and they can whoo you if they want you. Other than that, what you do is your business if you want to sexually explore, just be very careful..

CW