Ravs,

why not forgive yourself? You know guilt is a monster! Allow yourself this mistake, and allow yourself FORGIVENESS. That is very important.

Your heart needs to heal from what you've done. True enough, you feel "gross". That means you have a conscience and a heart. Now what's the point in your punishing yourself? Why hold on to the guilt? You're totally hurting yourself. You've punished yourself by what you've done.

Enough already!

Time to move forward and forgive yourself.