Thread: seriously need help with sister

in 21 my sister is 22. we both live at home. i have a hystery of depressions (periods of times no medications or anything- just recently named it) she has a histery of beeing a vylan but because family is so important to me i kept trying and trying. untill i broke and went to a shrink. she said not everything was my fault and that since the relationship is so bad maybe disconnecting would help. its been 2 months, my whole family kept making me feel guilty for it (like it was something i enjoy) and now this morning she woke me up for a 10-20 minut one person monolog about how much she despises me and hates me and anything that goes with that (feel similar about her) now i am not a take action person. when my other sisters asked ne about this fight i told them simply that im glad they do get along with her because everyone deserves a good relationship with there family but me and her just dont get along. this after she told my parents about a month ago to choose between us (the one thing thats stopping me from doing the same thing rite now- cant put my finger on exactly what it is but i do know that it makes me human so at least i have that) rite now my parents are on the way back home and i cant stop counting the seconds till they do because i cant stop shacking or leave this room till they do. im trying to hold back and not break but they have a couple of hourse and they just dont understand anyway. i never had a strong personality. i have strong emotions. i cant get my word out there. im the quiet kid in class, when you get that kid one on one he's nice and all but in breaks when everyone groupes up and playes im the one thas sits on the side and watches- shes the leader of the group. she has a way of it. even though they never took her side, they alwasys told me to eather fix it myself or that i was making to much of it. i triedto record her now but it didnt turn out good. i dont know what to do anymore. im out