sarah77

hey all ever since i was old enuff to rember ive pickt up the vibes off my dad that he likes me more than in a child and farther way since me and my sister ave been the age of 4-6 ive found my dad sneeking around our (old house bedrooms at night ) he creeps the outta me im now 17 but ive always fort my dad has lookt at me in the wrong way even as a child ive cought him in my erley teens sneeking and peeping into mine and my sisters room at night and id ask many time befour and what he was doing there! and hed scatter away ...one night last year i fell asleep on the sopfa and woke up and hurd him scurryin around 4-6 am going to work i closed my eyes shut hoping hed just walk past and go away and it went qwite and i woke up with him standing over me in a towel and and when he saw my eyes open he pegd it out the room . even now i can see him glaze my body up from top to bottem i hate it and he always youst to comment on my boobs when i was growing into my teens and joking around about the (ive never let him get close becuse i hate nowing that he thinks more of me than his child ) now weve moved house i cant pertect my sister as where in didfrent rooms now shes 14 and ive rasied this issus up befour on how the acktdid when she was a child how shed never go to bed without him and stuff or go upstears and theyd be up there for hours and how close they where shes 14 now and shes very strong mindid (chruch type girl ) im worried that she will never come to me if anythink happend to her and now even on this very day i put a chait upto my door soo i now if it has been opend or not i dont feel safe around my dads forever seeking eyes even though he has never done anythink wrong in that sorta speak it still feels qwite odd like the other day i was up town and this guy tryed to chat me up and i was like lissen dwwd you older than my dad go away ete ete ete and when i went home i told mum about joking and laffin and stuff and then he said somthink odd like if it was him he would or somethink ..and it court me off gard kinda and i was like i wuddant even go there your my dad ! ive even had my cussion whos the same age as my sister take a fancy to me befor now who 6'7 and is like a ton of brick im onley 4'11 and it ant like cussion ant tryed it on with me why do i get this atension its ant rite ...?and nore fair becuse im not doing nothink to course them the way they ackt !eg when we me andy where in my nans bedroom the once whatching a movie he puncht me on the arm (palyful way ) so i endid up slapping him on his leg and he got a hard on ! how dose a insent game like that end like that without the being some weird sexual meaning behind it without it happeing ! witch in some ways is why i dont wanna be thin and sexy and all the thing im so craving to be is becuse of how some guys even family memmber ackt !x

Iseulda

Sarah,

It's difficult to know what is going on in your family because your post here is all we have to go on. I will say this, parents look at their children sleeping. I'm not pretending to know your father's motivation but I know that, when I see my child sleeping, I sometimes can't help but stop and look for a moment.

Your father has done nothing actually overtly sexual - you said so yourself.

It is possible that he has some unfatherly feeling towards you but the important thing is that he has never acted on it. Never. There is no harm in you being vigilant (close your bedroom door when you are changing, wear a robe going to and from the shower, that kind of thing). But please be careful who you talk to about this kind of thing. You could get him in a lot of trouble and he's done nothing. Talk to your mother if you are genuinely scared, or to another older female relative that you trust.

The thing with your cousin is a bit easier - he is a teenager. Teen-aged boys pop wood for no apparent reason all the time. If that's all that happened you have nothing to worry about with him.

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Sarah, I agree with the above.

Do you also think because you were sexually exploring at a young age and good for you, but because of that, you may see all men look at women sexually?

I am only asking this based on your other threads...

On that note 3 partners in a few years, nothing wrong with that.

Masterbating from 14, nothing wrong with that either.

It may be that you were born to be sexually aware... And, because you are aware, you view all men looking or getting aroused as being sexual, naturally.

I like Iseulda's explanation there pertaining to the cousin, that's very natural but so is Dad making jokes about you or looking on you as you sleep.

CW

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