mdraven

My sister Diane passed away last Dec 20th. Just 5 days before Christmas. Her birthday would have been this Tue, Oct. 6th. I miss her sooo much. We used to spend hours on the phone after our mom died. I took care of her before she passed away. She was very ill with diabetes and heart problems. She basically gave up after her husband of 30 years had a heart attack and died in front of her with was sept 23rd 08.
Then my dad passed away July 23rd 09.
I just attended another funeral last week for my friend Julie's father. He had a military funeral and I was standing strong until they played Tapps. Then I couldn't hold back the tears.
I can't seem to get up the energy to do much today.
Still also trying to accept the fact that my bf left me a month ago.

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We're thinking of you.....

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mdraven

Thanks CW

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RainbowDinosaurs

Wow. I pretty much get the drift of how you're feeling.
My sister died 2 years ago from an asthma attck.
She was only 28, and it was so sudden.
It hurts for a while, and it's not like you can get over the death
Of anyone. But things will slowly get better, and you'll get yourself
Up somehow and get back on track. It's like WC said, as long as you have love
In your heart, those you have loved are with you.
I really hate when people die, it hurts so much.
But you always have to remember that you're still alive, and they wouldn't want you
Dwelling on their death forever. You just have to live for youselves, and for those who've passed on.
By the way, my sister's bday is Sep. 23. Only reasons I replied..
Weird..

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Is there really a reason for me to be here?
Why does it seem like my existence is meaningless?
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Which way is the exist?
Where is this supposed light I'm to see?

chica

I havent had a sister die, but I have two of them. I would not know what to do without them. They mean the world to me. I would give my own life for them to be happy!

The only thing I tell you is that, time heals all wounds. I remember when my father died I waa 10 years old. I couldnt breathe when I heard the news. Sitting in my room on my bed crying my eyes out. I was so lost, so hurt. It still hurts to this day, right now I am sitting at work holding back tears. But I can tell you this, I know my father wants me to celebrate life rather than live in sadness. You love your sister very much, and she loves you. No doubt about that. But even after our loved ones pass, they are still there. They listen. From exeperience I know this. Just live as if she were still alive, by your side.

Yes mourn your sister, miss her. But also live for her, and yourself. Its the only thing you can do. Remember the good times, the bad, the great times.

Keep your head up, and keep moving forward

And besides, you a lot of "sisters online" so keep on smiling!

mdraven

RD & Chica,
Thanks so much for sharing your feelings. I'm moving forward and rising up from the ashes.
I have something to concentrate on. I just bought a car. It's my first one and I've been practicing my driving. I've had my lisence for years but could never afford a car.
The holidays will be difficult since all I have left is one sister. Doubt I'll even have a significant other to share the holidays with this year. I have a lot of mixed emotions.
RD, sorry for your loss as well. Your sister was young.
Chica, I could only imagine how devestatind it must have been to loss your dad at such a young age. I know how bad it hurts and I'm older.

ThexMrs

I'm very sorry to hear this. I know what you are going through. I've been through a lot in my short years here. I'm only 22 as of last month. I lost so many people that I was close to in a short period of time.

My father committed suicide.

My aunt died a year later while my other aunt was in the hospital with cancer.

My would be step father passed away (asthma attack - fell off an overpass)

My uncle died from being hit by a car.

My grandmother died.

My ex boyfriend died of a Heroin overdose the following day after I told him I could no longer be anything to him, not even a friend.

My grandfather died.

My other grandfather got very sick and almost passed. Then his wife had to have heart surgery so I took care of the both of them 24/day. I had no life but them.

My mother tried to commit suicide twice.

I almost lost my brother in a boating accident.

I could go on and on. I not only surprise myself but my counselors for still being here and surviving all of this on top of the molestation and rapes. It's just something we have to set out to do. If we want to make it, we will. We're strong even when we feel weak.

I'll keep you in my thoughts.

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CHANDLERS WISH

There's some inspiration in that last post, very simular and hard to handle.

Thanks Linds for telling us all that, we never knew and explains alot only I as one and WC as two and Dr as three, have seen such a strength in you, over time.

Mdraven? Same with you, you changed to photos, you change to talk about things, and you added things into your life into this Forum, outside of all of this.

I'm thinking you too are changing and will continue to do so.

It's things like this that make me proud to be here. Just watching if nothing else.

CW

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ThexMrs

Thanks Chandler. Truth be told, without people like you, WC and the Doc, who knows where I would be at this point. You have all been so helpful to me. I love you all.

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