Thread: 28 years later and I don't still don't know what to do....

My dad left when I was very small. So small that I never remember him being around. But I grew up in a town that for most of my life had between about 30-40,000 people. (Not super huge). I saw him once when we were out somewhere when I was probably 6 or 7 and my grandparents pointed him out to me, but I didn't get to meet him. I've met my grandmother (his mom) once that I remember maybe around the same time frame)...

My family has had the same phone number for close to 25 years at least. We are very easy to find if they had any desire to ever contact me... When I hit about 18, I decided to try to just let it go. THen when my mom died around 20, I thought maybe they'd show, but they didn't.

I've always believed that I am better off with how my life has been (I have at least heard stories in passing about my dad), but I know I have siblings out there and other relatives. I used to be told all the time how much I seemed like one of them (intelligence wise/looks).

I came across an obituary from my dad's dad where he passed away last May and I never knew. I guess I always thought that if something happened, I'd go..I don't know maybe it's silly...

But I kind of want to contact my grandmother. They own a small business in my hometown. I knew exactly how to reach her. I have even thought about showing up one day to just see if they'd know me.

Am I dreaming too much?? Should I just stick with my resolve here?? It's been 28 years... if they wanted to contact me, wouldn't they have??