Thread: Anniversary of my mom's passing....

If you're anything like me.......it sounds like your meltdown is already out of the way. Perhaps you'll feel some sadness, maybe shed a tear or two at the thought of the anniversary, but I think you won't....I think you're going to have a GREAT time.

I have no explanation as to why some days are harder than others. It seems to me like I limit my thoughts on a daily basis to only certain things, and only allow those thoughts of my dad to go so far to KEEP myself from getting sad and melting down. But then somedays, you just need that...you just need to let your thoughts and memories go further and when you do, it hurts and it brings out the sadness of the loss. It's actually a very healthy thing in my opinion, though it does make you feel like a nutcase while it's happening. "9 years and you're STILL boo hoo'ing like this!?!?!" sounds like something I'd say to myself.

Um, where are you moving to? Better not be leaving the Bluegrass state!?!?!?

Hang in there my friend. It's normal to hurt, to cry and to feel exactly what you're feeling. There is simply no way to fully understand the loss of a parent until you've lost one of your own. They say there is no bond like that between a parent and a child....and it gives me great peace to know that there someone in heaven I have that kind of bond with. That bond never dies because she is and will always be living in your heart!!!

So sorry kygirl! Maybe try to take the opportunity of the road trip with friends to take your mind off the negative stuff. Plan a little time for yourself along one of the stops to go off alone and have a moment to talk with your mom and let her know you love her and are thinking about her. She would want you to have a fun day.

Thank you both... It is still hard to imagine sometimes how sad it can make me. But I do realize that it's a far cry from what I went through when it happened. So, it has gotten better. But sometimes, I just wish I could talk to her for just a few minutes and hug her and tell her I love her. I do that sometimes without her... I tell her things and that I miss her, etc. But it's hard to deal with how much it does hurt at times and it's hard to convey that to people who don't really grasp it...

And like you said BD, sometimes I do want to yell at myself and be like "what is your deal... get it together..it's been close to a decade now..." But sometimes it feels like only yesterday if that makes any sense.

I do think it's starting to pass a bit, but sometimes it just kinda helps to vent Hopefully I can stay occupied tomorrow mostly and have a good day. You're right SP, my mom would have wanted that.

Thanks again gals