Thread: Problems with Adoptive Parents

i will like a give a short description about my life and how i felt about it.

I was a victim of an unwanted baby, my mom gave birth to me and found out i was a girl, she decided to throw me to the rubbish. Then somehow came my fortes dad who paid usd150 to buy me off. I then went and live with my foster parents.

I live in a very big bungalow surrounded wt maids, driver and gardeners. but my life was a torture. I was beaten up everyday for 18 years by my step mom. sometimes she rip my hair off or knock me wt the garden tool. although we have maid, i am made to do the maids job and the gardeners job. she said sarcastic word to me everyday. i was mentally and physically abuse every single day for 18 years. i never know one day that i did not cry. i was always crying. they din told me i was adopted till i was 18. I never understood why i was being mistreated. Often i wish i was never born. when they told me i was adopted, they said very harsh things to me, that i shud have been grateful that they adopted me or i will have been thrown to the rubbish dump. u know what...my wish if i had a choice as a baby, i wish i would have been thrown to the rubbish dump. why would i wan to suffer 18 crazy years of abuse. people dont see it my way. i am the victim not u or them..people always wants to see things their way and u can say abortion is cruel but have u all know how it feels like to be homeless. I have even seen lucky happy kids wt good family , when they are told they are adopted, they went hysterical. how about those who have been mentally and psychically torture. have u ever try to understand how they feel.

I am alive now, i went thru alot when i was young. everything was very confusing. but life have to go on for me, i know committing suicide, taking drugs or etc are not right thing and i do not do it. I maybe the lucky ones that knows how to think. But i was the silent victim. i read alot in my loneliness. i tears alot in my abuse and sadness. seen alot. learn alot.

all i wan to say is, let people do their own decision and respect it. for watever the reason is, onli the person in that situation can make the decision, we as outsider has no right to mentally say whether is right or wrong. try to feel for others. try to look at the overall scenario. try to be supportive of any decision made. do not be judgmental on whether its right or wrong. sometimes all people wan is just support not advises.