well I thank you very much CW for listening to my additional information and reconsidering. It takes a big person to do that. I also don't disagree with you totally. Tonight particularly I'm feeling a level of comfort with my dad, and I believe in gut feelings too, so if this continues I may drop it and believe what my heart is saying, but I will investigate a bit more first.

My friends are not coming probably for several months so I have time to get this straigtened out, and anyway I can always tell them I want to visit them instead and see the old hometown.

I actually wrote a lengthy post about my mom and her possible denial and my therapist not listening to me but they logged me out for some reason and I couldn't post and I lost it. This therapist is actually a semi new one. I left the one before, not because he wouldn't believe me about something, but just because I had a hard time getting out of my depression and well I guess what he didn't believe is that I was trying at all and I knew I was trying, so in the end we basically just didn't like eachother as people (I'm not sure he was ever really fond of me) so I felt I had to find someone new.

This therapist who've I've been seeing just under a year has up to now been the best therapist I've ever had in my opinion. She has been extremely comforting to me. She has not bullied me into doing stuff and has not disbelieved me about my efforts, and yet has gotten me to further my life (I'm 26 and still live with my parents because of the depression and anxiety) very quickly. I have taken classes and now am actively looking for a job and I expect that I will get one soon, provided I don't just have bad luck or the job market is too difficult. That's why I was so surprised she was so closeminded about this idea even though she has never met my dad.

Forgive me, I'm kinda tired tonight, I may have to come back in a few days and try to rewrite what I said before.