I've always been one of the shorter people in my class which never really bothered me, I never felt "short". But I always got teased.
Now I'm 16 and 5 ft tall and I've been this same height for a couple years now. And it really bothers me. I love being short, I wouldn't like being taller...But an inch or two wouldn't hurt.
My problem is, I feel like a child. Yes, I'm young...but all the other girls are taller and have much more "womanly" bodies. I know it sounds pathetic, but I'm crying writing this.
I want to feel like a woman. I don't want to be a child forever. My 12 year old sister is taller than me! My mom is 5'3 and my father about 5'10. Not very tall...but this is ridiculous!
When I was born, I was tiny...And my parents were actually worried I was going to be "a little person". So they took me in to have some kind of tests done on my bones.
Heres what I've always been told, my whole life: The doctor said I would grow to be 5'6.
mmmmm !! . Bull shhitt
Maybe I could have grown a little bit taller, but I've gone through some tough moments in my life.
At the age of 12 I became vegetarian...Have not eaten meat since. And at the age of 15 and up to now, I've been struggling with bulimia... I'm sure these could have something to do with my height. And it really sucks I can't go back in time (I so would if possible!).
I just need help. Support. Something. Anything. I don't want to feel like a child. I really really want to feel like a woman. I always dreamed as a little girl that I'd have a beautiful body. I never pictured myself being tall, but I wasn't picturing myself looking like a 13 year old for the rest of my life either.
I feel not beautiful most the time, I can't even find jeans that fit. I just need some sort of advice. I don't know... It just feels good writing everything out too.




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