Thread: Scared, confused ... should I get tested?

For either HIV/AIDS or a general STD tests for anything?

I have no health insurance and don't get paid a lot of money for expensive testing. It'll be several months before I'll be able to get on the insurance with my job.

Here's my story. I met this guy in college from standing in the registration line waiting. Got to know each other, went on a couple dates, fooled around in his bed a few times ... to where I found out he wanted friendship which upset me since I liked him a lot. I eventually got over it and accepted his friendship.

Last month (since I have issues with sex due to being a rape victim at the age of 13, I've never truly felt "sex" in a positive way and have always tried to with boyfriends and failed. My curiosity to know what it actually felt like after enjoyable four play and oral sex done to me, got ahead of me. We had sex ... but he had to pull out after putting his penis in all the way since I started having some discomfort from not having anything penetrate me that way in awhile since my ex .. I guess. We didn't use a condom and no I'm no pregnant.

Now my closer friend, we did fool around and I did give him oral ... but I don't know. I'm more concerned about this guy more than my friend.

Lately I've noticed this;

- Constant memory loss and confusion to where I have forgotten how to do something at work
- Constant headaches from when I go to sleep at night and when I wake up and usually last a long time
- Dull aches in my muscles (ones that last longer than the ones I get from being on my feet at work)
- Dull aches in my vaginal area ... likes on the lips or the inside, kinda like the bone is aching a bit. I've felt inside and I feel nothing unusual.
- Sometimes sharp pains in that area.
- All of a sudden sore throat but not accompanied by runny nose or anything that associates with a cold or cold season)
- Constant small fevers (like my body feels warm and hot often) it's like on and off fever, but constant.
- No night sweats, but I do sweat a lot often
- I've had these little raised bumps on the top of my eyelids lately. Not noticeable until you look up close.
- Constant weight loss (I use to be anorexic for almost two years but my weight is stable now, but lately I'm losing it way too fast, like 4 lbs in a day sometimes)
- Lower back is aching most of the time
- All around body aches
- I've had trouble breathing due to being a cigarette smoker before, but lately it's almost ridiculous
- Acid reflux
- Sometimes diarrhea, frequently in the past day now like 3 bowel movements in a day.
- Dizzy feeling


Tylenol Extra Strength seems to be the only thing that helps for the pain...

I have no unusual vaginal discharge or odor. No painful or burning urination (only burn I get is slight burning after I urinate but that only happens when I've drunken too much soda in a day, if I drink a lot of water during the day, it never happens, weird?) No itching, burning, or sores in my vaginal area.

Now I do social smoke with friends, but usually I don't get any symptoms of cigarette withdrawal since my mind is very strong and I know I can't get addicted and I've never been able to.

It's kinda of cold here in Florida and I don't have any symptoms that note that a cold is with me.

I did a rough heavy period a week ago which made me go into depression and guilt and gave me lots of aches in my vaginal area but it went away when my period ended, but the vaginal aches were never there until recently.

Please help. I'm worried, stressing myself out, getting depressed, crying myself to sleep ... Maybe some of these are stress. But I need help.

What should I do...

I already feel like a trash and my own curiosity and minds greed got ahead of me.