Thiis past Monday I had taken my ASVAB and finally scored an Alpha. Now that that worry is gone I have another one...

As I said before I have a condition that does require a waiver and stayin motivated isn't walways easy. Everyday I try to stay on a that day mind type thiing. Like I don't plan ahead unless I know. My recruiter is tryin to get me a physical but there is thiis whole thiing about havin to disqualiy me then get a waiver to qualify me again. I hate the word disqualify. Lol. It kinda strikes fear in my heart.

Lately I've been prayin a lil more, and practicing patience a lil more. Way i look at it is hopefully if I change my ways for the better, then better thiings will come.

Idk. I just need to write cause I don't usually talk like im scared or nervous. I try to keep my composer about it. The only one I can truelly open up to is in Afgan. and even then now I can't shhow weakness.

I just pray for the best. There can't be anymore room for doubt.