Thread: So many things unsaid

I have written a couple of threads? Is he cheating or what and was just asked for a divorce
It's been four days since I left my house after my husband called me and told me he was divorcing me. Everyday, I go over it my head and I have gone through several emotions. My friends are there to support me and everything they tell me sounds rational but it is so hard to move on when so many things are being unsaid. Two days ago he called me to tell me that he was dropping off my car, I have been staying at my mom's house, I went to pick up the keys and he stood in front of me as he needed to say something, but I just walked away. I don't want to hear his words anymore, I don't want to hear his hurtful words but it kills me because I do want to talk to him but I am afraid that he will just assure me that it is over. I guess in some sick way I still have hope. All of my friends tell me that he will come back, guaranteed. But everyday that passes I doubt it even more. I tried calling him yesterday morning but he does not answer my calls. It's like if he wants me to disappear from his life completely. 15 years, how easy it is for him to erase me. What hurts me the most that we were intimate just two days before he asked for a divorce. I still don't comprehend Last night I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about him like I have in the last couple of days. Upset, I told myself what did i do to him who did i sleep with for him to just erase me out of his life, then I came with a conclusion that he probably slept with someone and he does not want to face me. I am having such a hard time letting go of hope for us. I need to take all of my stuff out of the house but it is so hard to go back and closing a chapter of a book that I love so much.