Well I got my hair done today....Im still hurting but I manged to make it to the salon.....I feel down but Im not crying so I guess that is a step in the right direction. Im going to make a plan of all the things I would like to do this new year and see how many of them I can achieve. I know deep down I am not a bad person and I have to remember that and hold onto the thought that maybe when I like myself again there might be someone out there for me that does not lie like my ex did. Im looking forward to going back to work and throwing myself back into doing something ......hopefully this will take my mind of things. I realise that you cant make someone feel the way you do....you cant make them love you or want to come back.....with this in mind I have to look forward............I know it will be hard and I know I will here from him by e-mail as to what he wants back but Im not going to be horrible Im going to be the better person.