I hope for a better new year!
I haven't posted in awhile because of the holidays...honestly I have been really down about it but try my hardest to look okay and happy on the outside...I have been losing weight which is good because I've been wanted to do it for awhile now but I know not eating a lot is not the way to do it, I have to force myself to eat somedays.
I felt embarressed to be around my extended family because I feel like I failed and I don't want to talk to then for fear of falling apart and crying!
I feel like I don't deserve what I'm going through I thought I was a good caring person, wife and mother why me?
Firstly, don't ever be embarrased around extended family, they for sure understand there are two sides to every story and "something happened"... I am sure you got on well with them whilst married and they would only be hurting for the both of you okay.
Secondly, the way you felt when it un-folded, no tears, was because it was also a slight relief to not have to go days not talking to him because he upset you.
So, this is just a " hard to get out of a pattern i was in, and having someone to love even though they never loved me back the way i needed that love"...
You need to say YEAH , 2009 WILL BE MY YEAR, you watch me go...
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
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