Yes, I'll have to agree with everyone when you guys say its down right mean. I get the impression that when he told me, he said it in a manner as if it was ok, or like he saw nothing wrong with it. I highly doubt that he said it cause of scared-ness, cause i highly doubt the ppl in the house would of told me anything anyways. they have no clue about marrige let alone feelings lol ( so sadd but true) .....He just told me like it was a regular conversation (what pissed me off more when he told me was ......."If i had to do it again i would, not a biggie"). And guys...... i know that there are worse things.. like him cheating......... or hitting me.......... but the reason I posted this for help or advice was because it was that very inccident that has made me so insecure and confused....
I have no clue why he gets himself in situations where he's alone with his ex....... it makes no sense to me. But i guess that's what i get for living in a small town where he "Got around"......... its inevitable that i will run into someone he had some type of sexual relation with.
I held in my anger and jelousy for a long time. then one night during one of our lovely big arguements i came out with how i felt about the incident. he sat there and listened to what i had to say. I cried, he said sorry. End of the convo. But even though he listened and said sorry after seeing me cry. Something still doesnt feel right. I havent been the same. I'm always scared.
and normally our relationship is great (now-a-days lol. it us to be rocky) But I still struggle with-in myself, if that makes sense???? I don't need therapy do I???? Maibe I just need to chill, and let time take its course.
THank you guys for your support.........
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