Thread: HELP! Im hitting a wall b/c of porn!

I just got married in May, and we have been together for almost 7 years.

When we met, and for the next few years,it was obvious that he had pig like tendencies, but I never thought it would continue over the years.

he was only 19 when we met, he will be 26. I was only 16 at the time. He cheated on his girl to be with me, along with the fact that at that time he was sleeping around with many random people. We just happend to fall for eachother.

When I would go to his place, he had lots of porn, wether it be magazines or videos. He also had and still has a huge obsession with porn style oral sex from a woman, if you know what i mean. And if I was the type of girl to let him do certain things, then i wouldnt be his wife.

I am willing to do pretty much anything he asks, but not when it degrades me to such an extent. Especially if anyone should be unsatisfied in the bedroom, ITS ME!


Anyways, so thats how it used to be and i felt that in time he would grow out of it, because he was finally a one woman man and i thought the porn was just a young guy thing.

As the years went on, I came to find that it wasnt over yet. He was still watching it when we were living apart. I found his stash hidden in his old room at his dads. Then after that period of time we got OUR first place together, and I came to find that not only was he ordering porn of my cable box while i was working ( and hiding the bills) he was also calling (on MY phone bill) these chat lines, meeting people, and sending them pictures of himself naked with objects to show his size off. ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?

So I freaked and threatend to leave, and also at the time he was a drug addict so naturally he blamed this uncomfortable obsession on his drug use.

A year later he cleaned up, and i thought I was finally rid of this problem until October of 2008, when i got a lap top. I would notice that my history tab was always open when i would go to access my favorites. And it would be cleared. I was worried, but there was no proof.

Then right after we started over fresh with the new year of 2009, with 3 months to my wedding, i found that he was searching youtube and watching his favorite, blow jobs, amungst other things. I freaked and gave the ring back and he said he was just being stupid it wasnt a big deal, and naturally with my wedding arounf the corner, i believed him, atleast i wanted to. So i locked down the computer, only to find a week later, he started using his phone to look at porn. When i confronted him, he said he didnt do it.

So by magic, his favorite search of blow jobs just appeared in his history. Then my computer history started disapearing again!!! And he denied denied denied all acusations. I told him if he truly has a problem, to be honest about and we can get help together to come to a happy medium. Again he claims it not an issue that he could care less about porn. RIGHT.

Since the wedding i have checked his phone twice to find that not only has he deleted his history, he has also deleted the pre fill bar as well, so i cant see what he searched for anymore. And then turns around and plays dumb like he couldnt figure out how to delete it if he wanted to. That he has never done that on his phone and anything i find he didnt do it. it just appears in his phone somehow. HA ok.

So to conclude this more than long story, I CANT DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE. I FEEL LIKE I HATE HIM, I HAVE TO COMPETE WITH THESE PORN STAR PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO CLASS, AND ANTIME I WANT TO BE INTIMATE IN AN ORAL WAY I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH BECAUSE HE CAN DO THE THINGS HE LIKES, THAT HE WATCHED AND DONE WITH OTHER GIRLS. BUT WTF IM YOUR WIFE, NOT A 10 DOLLAR STRIPPER. I CANT TAKE THE WAY I FEEL ANYMORE AND I AM AT A LOSS BECAUSE I CANT GET HIM TO JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH. I AM WILLING TO GET HELP TO DEAL WITH IT, IF HE IS WILLING TO TRY TO CUT THE WITH THIS TASTELESS MATERIAL. Please what do I do?!