I agree with Joy and Miya, while you continue to grieve fpor this man the only person you are hurting is yourself. He didnt have the feelings he said he did if he just walks away and never looks back, dont continue to torture yourself. My husband did exactly the same to me in March last year, I took him back but I'm now divorcing him. This is because I have realised that cheaters lie and liars cheat and he will never change. I understand you are mourning for the man he once was, move on with your life, you are strong enough to do it!!!