Thread: I love him but I hate him... Please help!

I'm in really difficult situation right now. I have been married for over 2 years, we have been together for 6 and everything was ok till last year. Due to economic crisis we were forced to move in with my mother in law. Our life got shuttered into million pieces, some is packed in storage room, some just emotional issues are hard to resolve. I'm helping my family by working for them however because I don't drive I stay with them from Tues to Sat night. My husband picks me up Sat just to spend a day and a half together. When we see each other, there are times we have good time and some we just argue. I'm tired of doing what I'm doing but I know I only got couple more months there. Since I became working for my family, my husband is blaming me for our problems. We don't have enough time to do things. We don't have privacy in his mother's house. I'm always looking for his attention when I'm here, for hugs, kisses and of course sex. I haven't had sex in a month and before even tho it was hard we still manage to connect some how. He tells me he loves me and for me to stop questioning his love for me.I wish I could but I have looked on his web history and I saw he looks at porn. I try to think it is ok because I'm not here but I hate he looks more deeper into it, for example, how to download movies off that website. I know he stay up late and lately makes excuses why he can't do nothing. I'm tired of hearing no or stop when I'm trying to make a move. I'm emotionally drained because I don't have my own place, I don't have things I love around me, I'm starting to feel more uncomfortable in his mother's house. The list continues and I got no one to talk to, I'm confused, I want my life back and his lies to stop. He was never like this and as much as I love him I can't take the thought of him watching porn and what he might be thinking when I'm not around. Please help me.