Hi there. I'm new to this forum but after reading other posts I thought it might help. I have been with my partner (M) for 4 years of which 2 have been living together. Though he is diabetic and therefore has ED it never bothered me and I was more than willing to do whatever it took to satisfy him. For the past year and a half he hasn't touched me. He said he doesn't have a sex drive anymore and is very sorry. I thought it was the diabetes. To my dismay I have found out that when I am not at home he it watching porn on the internet. In fact he goes straight to the porn as soon as he knows I won't be back for a while. Whether he masturbates to this porn I am not certain but what else would he be doing? I have talked to him about taking Cialis for the ED but he says he can't as it interferes with his blood pressure medicine.
After a lifetime of abusive relationships I thought I was finally in one that was respectful. In all other areas of our relationship life is great, we talk, we laugh, we enjoy silence together etc. But now I feel rejected and ugly. I want this relationship to work and will do what it takes but I don't know where to begin. I don't even want to think about leaving him but I don't think I can live like this forever.
Any help would be most gratefully accepted.

Dear Pinkduck
I can feel you pain, I am sorry for that.
and I am sorry to tell you that if you husband was really doing that, he is big jerk.
he deprived you from enjoying sex for over a year , and enjoyed watching cheap porn.
if I were you I would convince him to get some therapy
men who are addicted to porn can't easily give up watching it.
if he insists to continue
then this is new addition to your history of bad relationships.
and you can know that by
secretly installing a software to track what does he do online.

I HATE PORN! I am so sorry you are going through this. It sucks that you can't find out whether he masturbates to it. Have you tried just initiating sex without asking him for it and seeing his reaction? I would suggest to keep trying maybe dress sexier and see what happens. I know how you feel I found out my husband was watching porn too. I told him I didn't like it. He claims he doesn't watch it anymore. -You said you husband said he doesn't have a sex drive any more but he watches porn which proves he's lying. If he didn't have a sex drive he wouldn't be watching porn. Talk to him and tell him how it makes you feel. Tell him you feel cheated that he is spending time watching porn when he could be pleasing you. Also mention porn is cheating. There are plenty of ways he can pleasure you with out his penis penetrating you. It is his duty as a husband to ensure your happiness. I hope this helps. please keep us updated.

..speak to him as frankly as you do here to us and and make him tell you what is happening..and get it resolved or throw him out and find a better replacement..