IDK Anymore
i have been married to my husband for 4 1/2 yrs and with him off and on for 6 1/2 years.
We have 3 children together and I do love him.
Lots of things have happened tho I had a friend that I started getting feelings for but my husband found out and told me to choose i chose my husband and never once was intimate with my friend.
Well a year later he left me while I was 9 months pregnant with our third child. I was devestated. It eventually came out that he left bc he felt i didnt keep the house clean enough for him this was 4 yrs after we met he finally decided this...total bs in my opinion.
Well he came back to me and then last summer he fell in love with another woman and left me.
it was very hard for me seeing as it was the month of my daughters birthday and my anniversary the weekend after my anniversary he took my kids and stayed at his dads.
i later found out that this woman spent the night with him and my children. he told me that this woman gave him a feeling of joy that i had never given him. he told me one day he was goin to the lake and actually went to c her and i couldnt get ahold him.
he is a great dad to the kids but i didnt approve of my kids being around her. he met her while we had an open marriage which i know was stupid but i have always done what ever he wanted he always gets his way he decided he didnt want her anymore and came back but then finally i left him bc i couldnt get over it he begged me to come back to him and i finally did but the next nite he stayed at my brothers house bc it was closer to his job so we could save on gas he told me he was goin to eat and go to bed
well i found out that he was planning on having a female friend over i was so mad that he lied to me i dont mind him having friends and all but dont lie about it about a month ago i ran into a guy from high school and we have been hanging out i live with my parents so were never alone but the other nite i rode to walmart with him to get a cpl of things and my usband totall flipped out he says he cant trust me bc while we werent together i was intimate with one of my ex's
i do loved him but idk if i am in love with him anymore and idk if we can change the cycle of things should i stay or should i go IDK anymore
Last edited by CHANDLERS WISH; 05-29-2010 at 08:28 PM.
Sounds like as you've been off and on for 6 and a half years, had an open marriage, it would be extremely difficult for either of you to have a "proper" marriage, one where your exclusive to each other, without the non-trust coming into it ever.
You have children together, he's a great father, your probably "great friends" but if you want an exclusive relationship, either of you, and a marriage, only time will stop either of you feeling non-trust and you have to work on the marriage without it being open anymore.
Or, else, you both have to accept that you both maybe were not ready for such a commitment, as you both strayed in that marriage.
You have to decide if your ready. And, if neither really are, then it's not going to work, perhaps your better of being great friends and both find a solid foundation within a relationship.
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
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