Thread: How do I stop getting mad at husband about MY own insecurities?

My brother tried something that really helped him. He went to therapy when he was really down and she had him carry around a tiny notebook and immediately write down any negative thought he had...then let it go. He said it worked because eventually he realized how negative he was and it got to the point where is was really conscious of his thoughts because he didn't want to get the notebook out every time and write down silly thoughts that weren't even true. It really makes you think about what's going through your head.

Do you think implants would make you feel any better?

the thing is to me it is true, Idk bout the note book thing. And I think implants would help, but I'm not gonna lie I want implants and lipo and my lips done and other things.. In short I won't be happy until I look like a Holly Madison.

I don't know who that is, but you're very attractive just the way you are. Everyone has said it, but nothing will matter until you change how you see yourself.
If you really want to fix your skewed perception of yourself, they you have to try any and everything that may help. You have to really want to change it. It's negatively affecting your life, especially your marriage, that should be motivation right there. At the end of the day it boils down to you wanting to fix the problem and being committed to making that happen.

I just made an apt with a psychiatrist.. Idk if it will help... my husband is sick of dealing he is at the point where he wants them to drug me so least he won't have to deal with it so I'm gonna try seeing someone again.
I feel like making me look like a playmate will fix it we just dont have the money for that :/

It won't fix it though, your problem isn't with how your body looks, it how your mind sees yourself. All the surgery in the world won't fix your brain, there will just be something new to be unhappy about.
You really need to focus on getting over the mental side of it. For your sake and for the sake of your marriage because a marriage can't go on like this forever and it sounds like your husband is at wits end.

I hate that I do it to him and I hate feeling like this... I just lose it as soon as I see a naked chick in a movie or on tv b/c they never show flat chick b/c its disgusting and its unfeminine and not what people wanna look at so that's why you don't see it in movies its not appealing and ugly and I just lose it and wanna break the tv hurt myself or die rather then be so flatchested, fat and unfeminine