I also have this sort of rivalry I feel towards hims. Like when we're happy and in love together then everythings great. But as soon as i feel hurt slightly i feel angry about him. Thats when our relationship turns into 'a lovers tiff', I dont see him as my boyfriend/fiance/partner I see him as some guy i really fancy whos flinging my feelings back into my face and that makes me stand right up for myself.
I will stick up for myself if someone decides to have a go at me, but when i feel a little down and thing negatively about me i will 'attack/bully' myself.
I just dont know what to do or think, i really need help