I can't get the images out of my head either. I can completely relate. Rationalizing gets the best of me, too. Thinking to myself, at least he's not doing it physically, whilst my heart screams in emotional pain. I told him over and over how I felt about it. He promised he won't do it over and over, and still did it and I caught him red-handed. I packed my things and was about to go...he stopped me. He does have the urge to view things of that nature but he is now better at catching and stopping himself. It's been a bachelor past time for him so it will take time for him to unlearn - granting that's the case.

What you don't want to happen is that you completely lose yourself and your self esteem because of his actions. Think. His actions are his major flaw, and nothing to do with you at all. You are beautiful in every way - go back to that and love yourself more. Exercise, pamper yourself, pay attention to your needs and be self - reliant. I remember buying my very first vibrator because of this goal and I don't regret it. I don't use it as I thought I would, but I know that I have a a fall back in case I want to feel loved and cared for by me.

Boundaries are set so nobody gets hurt. You've set it (I assume), now, follow through. What are the repercussions for his action - for him not for you....think this through, comeback and discuss with us....share to him how you feel every time you get a good chance since I understand, schedule and timing is a huge factor. Likewise, look into the proximity of his work place and your residence. Is there a way you can move closer?