Don't you dare blame yourself for what he does to you! He is worthless scum of the earth. I just finished watching a show about the power of women and how many women don't realize that they are in a abusive relationship until it gets too much. Don't let him touch you in such a manner. He does it because you let him do it to you. You are strong and you are beautiful. Don't let him make you feel less than what you are just because he is worth less than what you are. He doesn't have a right. You need to make sure that he understands that you do not need him in your life, rather, you choose to have him in your life because you fell in love with a man that respected more than he does today. Stay strong my sister. I will always have you in my heart.