Thread: Could a Father ask for more

Hi everyone, just wanted to share a little of what's going on this week for me.

Since my marriage has gone to pot, I've been communicating with my son from my 1st marriage of almost 30 yrs: ago. He'll be 30 next spring.

His mother and I started on the wrong footing and it busted up in 3 yrs. She then took him out of state 6 yrs later, he was 9. Throughout the yrs I've had him in the summer and during many of the Holidays, so when you think of 365 days. that's not very much in the yr.

Him and I have had some pretty serious conversations throughout the yrs. but never like the one I had with him about 1 mo. ago.

I called him up, feeling down and told him what was going on and all. He began to tell me some things he remembered about me, some of the bad things he remembered as a child, when his mother and I were always arguing and unfortunately it would be when he was standing right there and such.

But, then he changed gears and told me when he noticed a change in me, which was after his mother and I divorced. He was telling me how he apprecitated the standard I held on him, how it was hard for him at the time but he was glad I held it on him, etc,etc,etc.

But here was the clincher, He said Dad " YOU ARE MY HERO Dad" I've always tried to pattern my life after yours, seriously, I could not believe it. I get chill bumps as I write this, I mean, I started to cry, I even remember saying, really? I could not believe what he was saying, I was taken aback! Tell me, what more would a father more appreciate than to hear his Son say that. I have pondered the question, I can't think of anything else, can you?

When he was growing up his Mother was always bitter of the past, still is, and lammed everything on me and talked bad in front of him all the time! Not bragging, but I never did that, I never said 1 bad thing about his mother. I never told him that she wanted to abort him when she found out she was expecting, how I begged her not to do it. I never told him of all the running around that had went on before we split up, nothing. When he grew up then in his early teens he begin to see thru all her bitterness and was able to forgive me and realized she was trying to poison him against me, I thank God for that today.

He told me all this, he told me!

So needless to say this week I'm going to be with him and his Wife and my Grand baby for a whole week, I am sooooo looking forward to it. He lives out of state.
They got it all planned out for me, to be with other people and all, get out a little, just me and him!

Here's my worry, of course he doesn't know how hard I've been dealing with things right now, you all know more than anybody, and we know I've had my issues I admit. I don't want to ruin this, so I'm a lttle afraid of being myself in the sense I might open up to him a little too much, afraid of destroying his attitude of me.
Naturally I don't want to!

So wish me luck and think about me will ya, I certainly appreciate it.

He's got the web there so maybe I'll take a few and get on to let everyone know how it's going. I'll be back next week.