I really don't know... I feel that it makes me a bad person but at the same time I almost feel justified. I continually tell myself that I am no longer in love with him but I find myself crying about him a lot. It's strange. I cry more now over what happened than I did in the beginning. Maybe in the beginning it was still shock that I felt.

I can't recall who said it and I'm not going to check right now but I think you might be right about once when I finally heal, I will genuinely want him to be happy in all aspects. It will definitely take time because right now there are times I am cursing him in my head and actually saying to myself that I hate him. I don't though... I couldn't.

Sigh...