Thread: Too Introspective?

As a dear lady here has reminded me before, many of the people who post here are not happy people. Their problems are often the result of lack of education regarding their bodies, bc, sex,and general health, a lack of self awareness, hypochondria, there are a host of problems and issues. You can't judge the general population from people who post here or any where else.

Some people have serious issues, there has been more than once that I've been up pretty much all night emailing back and forth with someone who is sucidal. I'd guess that some of them have worn out or alienated the people around them, being online presents some different choices and the opportunity to talk with people who are not and will not be personally involved. You do hear about sites where people simply rip each other apart. It's hard to understand why the person being attacked doesn't just just say, "up yours", and quit logging on.

I used to go on a forum that was unmoderated although it was part of a good sized internet networking site, it was apparently taken over by a bunch of hillbillies who all lived in the same town or area and were essentially feuding. Literally the, "you and your fat so and so son beter wetch it nex time you drive that peice of junk by my trailer cuz I no ur the one that put Marys pig in my old outhouse. And we all no it was your husbant that got my cusin's dawghter pregnent and don't you dare show up at my job agin" It was insane. It apparently resulted in several law suits and eventually they shut down that part of the site. There were some nice people there but it became impossible to have any kind of rational discourse.

There were some actual mental patients (had to be) there too who would put up long rambling things, one woman would show up every couple of months with long posts about the children being murdered and buried in the school yard, saying there were 20,000 over the past 10 years and there were 40,000 people where she lived and why didn't any one notice that the sheriff was doing this? And where are her babies? It was sad. Believe it or not there were other people on the site who took it seriously and thought there was someplace with children being murdered wholesale. They would get all worked up.

We live in a world that is becoming more and more overcrowded, where it is increasingly easy for people to "slip through the cracks", we are exposed to all sorts of toxins that wreak havoc on our bodies and nervous systems, we are bombarded with merchandising and advertising - virtually nothing is exempt from the onslaught, it is no wonder that many people lack the ablitity to sort through it all. It get overwhelming. This site provides a different opportunity to interact. I enjoy that there are people from all over the world, different age groups, genders, and perspectives. And while there are a few I'd like to occasionally give a shake and (lovingly) scream, "What ARE you thinking??!" Overall this is a pretty good bunch!

I'm always examining, questioning, looking for meaning in it all. I am on a journey. It is headed in a specific direction. Awareness of it it started in childhood. There have been some seeming deviations but they gave me an education I wouldn't have had otherwise and new insights. Some of it's been painful but as I mature I can see that it will have been worth it. I can feel myself moving toward a point where it will all come together into a usable whole. There are people here who have helped me in clarifying some things (although they may not realise and would be surprised at what or how). I've done quite a bit of writing triggered by things here. Some I've shared and some I've reserved.

The important thing is, are you moving forward?