Thread: Ladies do you email naked pic's of men to your female friends?

I know this may not go with my topic, but needed to let this roll off my tongue and onto the page..

I remember the struggle i had when i first decided to snoop on hubby. It was horrible, i went back and forth and turned myself inside out... And then to find my concerns verified, well.. that caused even more of a spiral.
To this day, looking back.. i wish i would have never.. taken that step. It changed me..... I felt guilt, anger, frustration, dis-respected, and that isolation crept in.. I felt alone. I felt as if he settled for me,
That was what hurt the most
when what he wanted was what he was viewing all the time, via.. internet... A beautiful, 18 to 20 year old, with X-LG breasts...
I love him, all that he is and is not. And had frequently displayed that verbally as well as non verbal.
As time went on, the little green monster grew, and i changed into something i did not like. I hated that i felt the way i did, (negative) that i was checking on him and wondering what he was looking at all the time. It had to STOP...
I remembered something i read once.....'a suspicious mind conjures it own demons'....
It has helped me. And am bagging the monster.

When you have a spouse who has lied, cheated, betrayed........you CANNOT blame YOURSELF for feeling insecure, jealous, and drained. What I get from what you're saying is that "ignorance is bliss".......is that truly how you feel? That you'd rather have not known of his lies, than to find them out? There are many women who choose to turn the other cheek, but let me tell you, they live their lives KNOWING, without having to look and actually find anything.

You are not at fault. It is amazing what cheating can do to the self esteem of the person who was cheated on. Don't let yourself fall into that category. You have deemed yourself as a jealous freak overcome with the green eyed monster..........but why? WHY are you jealous? Stop blaming yourself.

Hubby sounds immature at best. You know he's capable of lying and cheating because he's done it before. HE destroyed that trust. You did not. Remember that.

The problem was, i let the green monster grow. I allowed this, and it was changing me, as an individual. I did not like what i had become. It was eating me up inside and effected my daily life. I must admit it effected our intimate time together as well. When i stated the above, i do not wish to walk thru the world blindfolded... But i never again wish to let the green monster gain control.

Thats totally understandable. I know what that feels like. It does take over if you let it. Isn't it amazing how the person that actually does the lying and cheating seems to end up suffering less from it than the person it happens to? What goes around eventually comes around, but in the meantime it's extremely difficult to deal with those feelings.

Eventually, it will be a decision of your own happiness vs your marriage. It doesn't sound to me like he's making a valiant effort to build back the trust. You can't do all the work.