Thread: He wants to cum in my mouth, because it felt amazing when his ex did it!

My boyfriend and I have been together for seven months (long distance), and I told him that I'd like to give him a blowjob when we see each other this weekend. I'm 23 and don't believe in sex before marriage, and he respects that decision. But I have recently felt a little different about the idea of absolutely no sex before marriage. Because I love him and we plan to be married in a few years (we have known each other since 7 years old), I've decided that we should -at most- have oral sex. I want to please him, but not to the extent that I'm giving up all of my values. That's why I'm compromising.

But tonight we were talking about it and joking around, and I was saying I want him to have a condom on. He said he hates condoms and it would take away from the feeling, which I understand if I'm giving him a blowjob. But to convince him, I said let's just use a condom because he wouldn't have to pull out of my mouth. And he said it would be way better if he didn't have to use a condom and didn't have to pull out. And I told him that it's disgusting lol and it would be like tasting his snot lol and we laughed about it, but then he said, "But it's the most amazing feeling." And I asked him if his ex had did it for him before and he said, "Yes, it feels so good." And he suggests that I try it, and I don't need to swallow. I don't want to be in the same category as her and let him cum in my mouth! Now all I can think about is that girl giving him head. I did the whole passive aggressive thing and told him goodnight and tried to get him off the phone. Well of course, he saw right through it, and called me back and wants to know what's wrong (He's such a guy!). He had no clue I was being that way because of what he said. I don't even want to suck his penis anymore, that's how repulsed I am. But anyway, it was awkward for me to say it but I told him that I couldn't stop picturing him cumming in her mouth. He apologized and felt really bad, but I said it's fine and we said goodnight again.

Oh and the other day we were talking about jobs and he said I should work in a sushi restaurant because his ex was a waitress there and she made good money. That didn't bother me before but now I feel like "Great, so he wants me to be a waitress and suck like his ex." If he likes her so much why is he with me?

I know I may have inflicted this annoying feeling on myself by asking him if his ex-gf let him cum in her mouth, but he didn't have to be enthusiastic about it and try to sell the idea to me. It was a major turn off. Am I making this out to be a big deal than it really is? It's just his approach threw me off. If he would have said, "Baby I think it would be really nice if you'd let me cum in your mouth." Or any other approach that wasn't as sensitive as telling me about his past sexual experiences. I mean if he could see it from my perspective you know? Look at me, I'm a 23 year-old virgin for crying out loud. I haven't had ANY experience with anything until he came along. It just pissed me off that he said that to me so easily without thinking he might offend me.

Can you guys help me get over this? Thank you so much