Hi, I'm not sure if you still check this but I read your question about getting a tubal litigation and everything you explained about the fear of pregnancy and even pregnant women is exactly how I felt as well. I couldn't even go around my best friends when they were pregnant or even hold their babies. I tried to get therapy while I was in a relationship but it only made things worse. Finally, I looked into the Essure procedure. It's non-surgical and I got it done without having any kids at 26. There are a lot of mixed feelings about the procedure because it's new but there are problems with all procedures including standard tubal litigation. With the Essure they even do a confirmation test to make sure it worked. I actually have a thread on here with a poll that allows people to rate their experience with it and explain step by step what they go through so that anyone who might be interested can get a full scope of what happens. Good luck and I wish you the best.