Dear Cdext41, The first orgasm I ever had was go intensely painful, I thought I'd never touch myself or anyone else ever again. It didn't help when I confided in a friend my experience, her reaction was, "Well, you must be a freak or something." I got passed that and it is no longer a problem. You boyfriend is right however, sex isn't about orgasms, it's about connecting with the person you care about. Stop putting needless pressure on yourself. Best Wishes, Sally